Paul, Tiffany Chambray and Logan: Our Adoption Story

Paul and I were married April 1998 in the Salt Lake LDS Temple. After being married for nine months, I went off "the pill" because it made me so sick. So for eleven years I have never been pregnant. After surgeries and other methods of trying to get pregnant for 4 1/2 years, we decided that we would try adoption. We were approved and put on the adoption list for birth mothers to look at in October 2003. It was definitely an emotional time because we never knew when we would get a call telling us that we have been picked. As time went on, I asked myself why are we not getting picked--I thought we were a cute couple! Each holiday I would wonder if this was the last one we would have with just us and if next year we would have a child. Family members and friends would get pregnant and I truly was excited for them but couldn't understand why we couldn't start our family. There were many tears shed! One of the many blessings I have received from this trial of not conceiving children is the relationship that Paul and I were able to develop. We were both going through this trial together. We have hand friends and family comment on our relationship and how they look to us as an example of the type of marriage they want. What an honor it is to us and humbling for people to feel that way about us. In April 2006, we finally got that call we had always waited for. We were told there was a couple that was 99% sure they wanted to place their baby with us. They wanted to meet us in a week to make sure since she was due in a month. Our agent said, "Aren't you so excited?" I said YES but what if they don't want us, I don't want to get excited. She said, "They are 99% sure-BE EXCITED!" We met our birth mother and birth father a week late. We learned all about each other and they told us they were having a girl and what were we going to name her. We said Chambray and they said they liked that name. Our agent asked our birth mother why they picked us. She said that it was important that this baby could have both of her mother's love and felt that I could give Chambray that. I was so touched that she would trust me with something so important. A month later on May 22, 2006, Chambray was born. Two days later we went to the hospital and Chambray's birth parents placed her in our arms. What an experience. I was so excited to finally be a mommy but my heart went to those two AMAZING people to be so selfless, having the courage, strength, trust, and love to make our dreams finally come true! Chambray is such a blessing in our lives. We have this plan on how we think things should go: get married and have children a little after. But Heavenly Father sometimes has a different plan for us. If Paul and I were able to get pregnant we would have never gone to adoption and had Chambray in our family. I figured once we adopted Chambray I would get pregnant and continue our family-that is how things went for my sister. Well, that is not Heavenly Father's plan. There is another child that needs to come to our family and we can't wait to welcome that child!-or two! As we say: We are a six foot family hoping to grow by two or four feet!